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闲的没事儿干点开前任的微博翻了一下，看到他最近养了猫咪，有点想私信聊聊，结果又翻了两条看见他转了黄俄的微博and then i 😂

我总是想好多，我每次做一个决定之前就会考虑很多很久以后因为这个决定可能发生的事，并且如果遇到一件我好像解决不了的事，就会考虑放弃这个决定。我觉得这样是不对的。

抽不出时间来读书好焦躁啊。

两会要来了，不知道微博上的友军有多少人能一站到底，wish them the best

其实我从未体验过『目睹离别』这样的事。

我永远也不会知道当下发生的是否会是与眼前人的最后一次亲密，有时尽管他已经把话说的很清楚，我和他都热泪盈眶，但我似乎潜意识里总相信有重逢就不是永别；然而事实是，重逢的概率比被雷劈还小。

我总是在很久以后才回想起来，原来那就是最后一次，原来那就是离别，原来句号已经被写下了。我面对离别，很少有直观的感受，离别总是藏在记忆里，时不时探出头来。

听张悬《我想你要走了》，其实歌词讲的是一个人目睹离别的过程，她看见眼前人就要离去，她感觉空气在收紧、时间在凝滞，她似乎提前预感到了往后『蓝天白云』的日子，而从离别的那一刻到『蓝天白云』之间，她的心情都是静止的。

我从来没有这样的感受，因为我从未体验过离别的进行；但每次听这首歌，我总能想到自己经历过的离别和失去的人，眼泪一刹那挤在眼眶里，流不出来。失真吉他的声音拉长，我就感觉自己的记忆又被伸展开来，无限蔓延，我发现我的本质和她目睹离别的本质是一样的，情绪的降落是一瞬间的事，但是被拉长到了一个过程。

我好喜欢这种听歌的体验啊，我的情绪和她的情绪交融在一起，像在沐浴。

@goldenye_ 很恐怖，我前两天不小心比较激动和室友吵了一架以后马上道歉了，保命要紧

仅仅只是团支书在班群里发了让大家看青年大学习的通知我就一阵想死袭来

living in a country where any individual is born to be perished i'm just so fckin frustrated u know

the funniest part is that they still don't find anything wrong w their opinions, which is, war is necessary and needed and lives dying out there r never their concern, and even w the situ that I'm living better off on my own, they do believe that i should get back to their daily conversations and return to the so-called normal life. i guess Chinese just LOVE to gather together and act and think like a team, it's forbidden and unacceptable to be a solitary, or even a simple individual

so over the last couple of days i haven't spoken a single word to any of my roommate cuz we had a lil argument, after which i was sure that they're a bunch of nazis and i decided to live a whole new life on my own without too much connection w them. and I've been doing just fine and actually feeling better than ever, but all of a sudden my roommates seem to be a lil guilty now🥴it's like they blame themselves for isolating me omg lmao i mean wtf