当你的女儿
问你她漂不漂亮
你的心会像酒杯一样掉落
在硬木地板上
你内心有一部分想说
你当然漂亮,永远不要怀疑
而另一部分
另一部分则在
撕扯你
让你想抓住她的肩膀
直视深井
那是她的眼睛,直到它们倒映出你的眼睛
你想说
如果你不愿意漂亮,就不必漂亮
这不是你的职责
两者都会感觉正确
其中一个会感觉更好
只有在她想剪掉自己的头发
或穿上哥哥的衣服时
她才会明白第一的是什么
你会感到言辞在你的口中
像弹珠一样流转
如果你不愿意漂亮,就不必漂亮
这不是你的职责
——《这不是你的职责》/ 凯特琳·西尔
when your little girl
asks you if she’s pretty
your heart will drop like a wineglass
on the hardwood floor
part of you will want to say
of course you are, don’t ever question it
and the other part
the part that is clawing at
you
will want to grab her by her shoulders
look straight into the wells of
her eyes until they echo back to you
and say
you do not have to be if you don’t want to
it is not your job
both will feel right
one will feel better
she will only understand the first
when she wants to cut her hair off
or wear her brother’s clothes
you will feel the words in your
mouth like marbles
you do not have to be pretty if you don’t want to
it is not your job
-- “It is Not Your Job” by Caitlyn Siehl
哈哈哈哈!笑死了,有人在letterboxd上列了个豆瓣禁片,分享给大家!https://letterboxd.com/chiujohn/list/the-movie-cant-rattings-at-douban/detail/
住在阿姆,十分喜欢女人