感觉自己还是太习惯逃避了,面临任何看上去无解的事都不想去put more effort to make it work,从某种程度像贝尔冒险中的大张伟,但是可能优势在于还年轻,自己对于自我、对于自然几乎不会产生“无解”的困惑,更多的“无解”还是面对人,面对社群,以及像高一高二那会考试不会写就一字不写的情况,喜欢管自己叫逃跑冠军…这么对比起来,其实过去两年里有意识地逃避的情况已经减少了很多很多,但是想要一夜回到解放前似乎也是很简单的事,人似乎还是不要想要太多,逃避是不作为的具体形容,而不作为最根本的原因就是选择太多,必须学会屏蔽掉一些选择
with men i mean especially but i cant tell how homosexual relationship could make things different but love is dangerous in general, if most people think to love is to experience then it also works out that to not love is also an experiment, that starts to make sense with monks and priests for what they chosen