醒了，自我智齿作怪起的这几天，清醒的时候就只有几个小时，吃药迷糊狂睡觉。 （好好珍惜这几个小时刷嘟嘟
假期第四天，智齿发炎第三天。
终于重振精神，去了菜市场。
今天重阳节，和阿婆说好，我来做菜。
菜市场里，阿婆常年光顾的甜酒铺，店主热情地给我舀了一杯酒糟让我当零嘴。“二十年没吃过我的酒糟啦。” 但其实阿婆每年春节都在她家买好几桶米酒，每年都有尝到她的手艺啦。
豆腐摊只拍到一角，整齐的豆腐摊上一般有十几种品类，从豆腐、各类豆干到豆腐泡。水好的地方豆腐就做得好。这里有酒埠江、洣水，豆腐香干闻名已久。如果去到全国他乡的湘菜馆，若是很地道的馆子，会把这道香干摆在门面菜单上，凸显地道本色。食客一看就懂了。因此我去建水的时候就很能理解建水的豆腐好。因为建水的水实在是好呀。
灯仔油货的小摊，已经不出摊了。阿婆说那两人年纪大了，不出摊了。真是遗憾，我每年回来阿婆都买他们的油货给我吃。
这次在菜市场里的一家早点店里买的油货，总感觉不是小时候的味道。这种灯仔油货，咬下去，里面是糯一点的糕体，夹杂着葱和辣椒，很香。
我打算做醋蒸鸡，没有米醋和豆豉，我打算偷溜去一趟超市买齐。出发～～
所以当我听到M说她妈妈和她一起大骂杀人恶魔的时候，感受到基本的人性和善良能够一起聊真的很好。而我家里人都是我最讨厌的事不关己高高挂起的态度，我就觉得很分裂。 
而且我当时见到M的妈妈，阿姨破口大骂习近平怎么还不去死，我整个惊住 
血亲里面我最信赖最割舍不下的就是阿婆了嘛。
结果今天吃饭的时候，阿婆说起她朋友的孙子高中就想去澳洲读书了。我说：“好呀好呀，早去早好。这么小就有决断了也很好。”
后来，说起习近平和普京。
阿婆说：“只要习近平当得好，一直当也行啊。”
我说：“阿婆，他当得不好，民不聊生了已经。”
对于我阿婆的“我觉得习近平是好人”和“我觉得普京是好人。”我实在是忍不住，给她看了好些乌克兰的视频。觉得她看字幕很困难，特意选了志愿者柯义的视频给她看。
最后她的态度是：“也不知道你给我看的是不是真的。俄罗斯为什么要打乌克兰呢？”
我：“因为你是善良的所以不能理解坏人为什么要侵略别人。就像九十年前日本人为什么要打中国呢？”
我试着引导她回忆文革，我说“你们当时有看到红卫兵整无辜的人吗？他们为什么要这么做呢？”
她说当时有好几个派，她在的这一派不去整人。好好上班呢，不去整别人。
“但好多人不都是被莫名其妙地打倒，无妄之灾。”她没说话。
阿婆：“我不管，不要想那么多，我就过好我自己的就好了。”
我：“阿婆，你的养老金还有得发就行。我这一代没办法闭着眼睛跟着一起烂。”
长叹……起码未来的家人，我能自己选吧。
智齿引起的牙周炎太猛了，吃的药也很懵，整个晕晕乎乎。这两天只能一直睡，感觉把最近的缺眠给补回来。现在决定翻翻相册，狂嘟嘟一会，转移注意力。不过止痛药也吃了一些，貌似开始见效了，嘿嘿，在象地上好好玩。
转帖神回复
微博上有人说，如果北方人都不烧煤，天就会变蓝了。
有一个神的回复：如果大家都走上街头，天就亮了。
@board 想问问大家…
上午朋友目睹了对面楼房小孩跳楼，我除了倾听还能做一些什么呢？线上预约心理咨询以外，还有什么可以帮助的资源吗？书或者影音？
喵喵到了阿婆家，被阿婆投食了第一波——一盒枣子。现在阿婆在厨房煎鱼，和我说好了明天重阳节给我炖老鸭。
阿婆！重阳是你的节日啊！！！
可能对ADHD有帮助的一些建议——来自油管Ryan Fill评论
可以看出大哥确实是过来人，很实在的建议，即使做不到也可以参考下。ADHD对每个人的影响是不一样的，基因+环境造成illness或者disorder。希望大家都能在事情完全失去控制之前做一点点改善！
Ok so I have ADHD and have gone through some major depression in my life, I have had some major lows in life and here are things that helped me alot:
1) Use your ability to hyper focus in your career and you will gain tremendous success in any field of work you are in. Being able to handle high stress loads which most people with ADHD have no problems dealing with, makes you an incredible asset. You will soon learn that you will thrive in chaos and die from boredom. Keep yourself busy!!!!
2) If schooling is not away to learn, go into trades/construction where you can hand on learn and use your senses to learn. You have a great advantage of learning when you are engaged in what you are learning. At the age of 28 I'm outshining engineers who have gone to school for 5+ years and managing people who are double my age. I don't have any degrees/diplomas.
3) Stay away from alcohol and drugs, you become waaay to dopamine dependent and always seek it. You have a way healthier balance of life without it.
4) Be very careful entering relationships with the wrong people, the amount you will overthink things in relationship is really hard to stay balanced. Break ups are incredibly hard for the amount of overthinking you are going to be going through. Be incredibly picky you you allow into your heart.
5) Understand that alot of the things that you think are going wrong in life is just your brain overthinking things and not properly sorting out thoughts, events and emotions. Meditate before bed every night to sort out all of these thoughts and you will realize how little significant the things you are beating yourself up over. You can easily do 10 great things in your day and 1 negative thing that happened makes you completely forget all the bad ass things you done in the day. Praise wins and ignore loses.
6) When you start slipping into negative mind sets, make it habit to catch and realize your going into this mindset and with the knowledge that you are doing so because of your ADHD and this thought actually not being valid. I often talk myself out of things before my brain gets to obsessed with the negative. On this note, if you do sink to far down a rabbit whole of negative. EVERY SINGLE GOD DAMN TIME YOU NEED TO REALIZE IT WILL MAKE YOU A STRONGER PERSON TO GET THROUGH IT AND FIGHT LIKE HELL. You will start to realize what a blessing it is to be in a low spot in your life, because you know how much stronger of a person you will be on the other side, after you go through this a few times.
7) Every single day you need to drain both your physical and mental energy. You need to do both exercise and do things that are mentally stimulating.
8) Work on your communication skills and the way our brains work, we can easily become amazing conversationalists and become quite funny, interesting and all around enjoyable people to be around.
9) DO NOT BE AFRAID OF YOUR QUIRKYNESS!! Our random ass minds make us very unpredictable to people and people love it. Be silly and goofy around people and say what ever is on your mind. I always get compliments how random and funny I am. People without ADHD are more likely to be predictable and boring. I'm sure you all know how much you can be a chatter box around people you comfortable with, work on being this way with everyone.
10) Ultimately you need to become inlove with yourself and see yourself as unique and amazing person. You are an incredibly gifted human being and you need to see ADHD as a blessing more then a curse. Work your very hardest to see the beauty of life and become the most positive/uplifting person you can become. You will shine bright like a diamond and life will treat you extremely well, once you master your mindset.
Last but not least Tony Robbins taught me this in one of his videos, but people with ADHD are going to be extremely impatient and sporadic. Realize everything in life takes time and stop OVER ESTIMATING what you can accomplish in one year and stop UNDER ESTIMATING what you can do in 10. In time everything will sort itself out and YOU WILL FIND YOUR PLACE AMONST EVERYONE on this planet.
Much love,
Ryan
假期第一天坐车🚅
假期第二天智齿发炎迷迷糊糊睡了一天
假期第三天从刷长毛象开始！٩(˃̶͈̀௰˂̶͈́)و
微宝正在吃早饭，忽然抬头指着风中摇摆的秋叶说：butterfly!
在公众号女泉里面阅读旧闻，终于看到一篇批评闪光少女斯斯及其采访的那些闪光少女们了。
我觉得她们真的很矛盾，真的是感受到这些人满满的成功欲望，而不是真正的关注边缘人士权益的提升。
终于，终于看到这一篇，超级有共鸣！
録画していたガンダムみました。百合に挟まる男をダルマにして婚約しました。
恰好都是抗争自2018始，恰好都是在今年得到了各自尽管形式不同但实质差异不大的“结局”。弦子和Jingyao都辛苦了，四年来，不容易。我们都知道她们在对抗的是怎样的庞然大物。就像蝴蝶飞不过沧海，没有谁忍心责怪。
加入于 2022年04月
